Recap

So recap of my life over the last 6 months....some of you know, some of you don't, some of you THINK you know.

Last October our lives as we knew it, came to a halt, pause, stutter....abrupt end.

So many things happened, so many things were said, so many things that are hard to come back from....but Steve and I filed for divorce. It was not easy, not what either of us had planned. I moved out the end of November and our divorce was final the beginning of February.

Steve and I have worked together rather well, actually. The way we worked the assets and $, he was able to refinance the house to keep in his name....we both wanted this for the girls and I knew that I would never be able to keep up with the upkeep on the house....can you imagine me mowing the yard?  I have an apartment near the school but hopefully will look to buy something this fall. Both of our lawyers agreed this was the easiest divorce they have processed b/c we didn't fight over anything and we had almost no debt to split.....the house and then we each took a car, nothing else.

We were able to spend Christmas and New Years together which was nice. We've had no arguments about holidays and honestly, I think we are just really doing what is best for the kids at this point. I have much lower patience with the kids b/c I think they they push me further....b/c isn't that was daughters do to mothers? Steve is willing to have us come to the house for a change of scenery when we are cooped up for too long in this small space or when the kids want to play outside with the neighbor kids (pre-coronavirus)

The girls are doing pretty good! We informed both teachers and the guidance counselor of the situation and they all have been so supportive. I think the girls have so many friends with divorced parents that it didn't really seem all that abnormal to them, which is really sad. Of course they have their moments and emotional breakdowns but I think they would have those anyways.

So we are living our new normal...it's not always pretty, it's not where we thought we would be a year ago...but we are here. We are working on everything day by day. It is hard to lose your best friend and then try to figure out where you stand in each others lives. So day by day is all we have.

Coronavirus = COVID19

I'm so over it...and not b/c I'm tired of my kids. I'm tired of the news and having that be the ONLY thing they talk about. Facebook is just loaded with crap. I can't read about the people who won't touch things in stores and take off their clothes are the door to wash then get in the shower when they get home.

I am not a germaphobe, never have been and probably never will be. Honestly, we are rarely sick so maybe we have built up an immunity to germs. Presley is definitely more aware of germs, she won't share straws, I can't touch her food and as much as I want to tell her how dirty our lives probably really are otherwise, I just try to accept it and let her be her.

I'm doing my part. I'm working from home. I'm social distancing but I really need to social media distance also. I have been to Hy-vee twice in the last week and picked up an order at Target today....and guess what? I didn't use hand sanitizer! My kids haven't played with anyone but each other and honestly, I'm not sure I would care if they did. But I'm trying to obey the rules.

The girls have been fairly decent over the last week. They were stuck with me in this apartment from Wednesday at 3:00 until Monday at 10:30.....I had a meltdown Thursday morning at 9:30. HA! There has been some definite fighting with all 3 of us girls in a cooped up space but we found things to do and kept busy for the most part. They do eat way too much and we go thru way too many dishes.

I'm not homeschooling. I know some schools/states are providing stuff and parents have these great schedules. I'm over it. Not happening. I'm doing little things to help 'teach' them. Presley has been doing a lot more in the kitchen these days which is nice. We played Monopoly and used the dice and money to add and subtract.....and then I made them say numbers in Spanish too! :) We have done a couple dice math games and they read one day out of the last 6. Parent fail?

Don't get me wrong, I understand the seriousness of this. Though I think we are dismissing other issues that are serious also but don't get as much screen time but whatever. I do worry about my parents even though I don't think they worry so much about themselves. I worry more about the economic impact on the world more than anything else. The worldwide impact and # of people that are 100% impacted and whose lives are turned upside down because of this are what I worry about more than anything.

I have seen people be SO much nicer and more giving and friendlier than normal and that is great! I have found myself doing more for others even though I might not fully have the money for it either. I have reached out to more friends during this time, maybe it is b/c I have more free time, but that is okay! I think it is all we can do to get thru all of this insanity together and hopefully we will come out stronger on the other side!