Rant

As I said before I have been off of Facebook for almost 3 weeks. I just feel there are too many things that irritate me, make me feel like crap, make me roll my eyes and it is SO hard to NOT respond to it all, so this is my rant.

- COVID19....Everyone has all the answers. Everyone knows what is best. BLAH BLAH BLAH. How about everyone just worry about themselves? Yes, it is hard to see kids playing with other kids when you won't allow your kids to play....but just be happy, in knowing that you are doing what is right. Yes, it sucks that not everyone will follow the rules but let's be real, did we really think that everyone would?

- I don't understand why people feel the need to tell their significant others how much the love them and such on FB......all the time...... when they are probably sitting on the other side of the couch from them. Are you trying to prove to everyone else that you are happy? Are you trying to hide how you really feel by constantly trying to repeat yourself over and over again? Just look at the other person and tell them! I don't get it.

- My 11 year old is getting boobs. She mostly wears athletic wear with sweatshirts so she has been mostly 'hidden' until now but man, I don't want to deal with this nonsense. Especially with a pre-teen who is self conscious already.

- We just had Easter. Presley said something about the Easter bunny being the parents and then commented about Santa. I gave her a death stare to be quiet and said that we would talk later. She laughed and laughed....like an uncomfortable laugh b/c she realized she had called us out. I said very little to her. I told her she didn't have to believe but that Piper was 7 years old and she has to. I told her I didn't want to hear her say another word about it! She said she understood and that was the end of it....I have always told them, 'if you don't believe, you don't receive' :) 

School

So school is canceled for the rest of the year. I honestly don't even know how to deal with that.

I am not a teacher. I don't have the patience. I have to work. I can't do it. The last 4 weeks have been rough with me working from home and since Steve is still working they are with me every day. I have a minimum of 2 conference calls a day and sometimes have up to 5 calls a day. Thankfully the girls are pretty good during these calls b/c they don't want to be heard on the other end, however this is all time that I cannot dedicate to helping them with school work. And I don't. We have no schedule, I'm not forcing them to do anything. They have some educational websites they can play on, I bought some Brain Quest workbooks off of Amazon, I have some print offs they can work on....but I have no standards or expectations. And I can't care and I'm trying NOT to feel bad about it.

I got off of FB almost 3 weeks ago b/c I can't deal with the moms out there who seem to have it under control with schedules and fun days planned for learning. I don't need social media to make me feel any worse about myself than I do.

I think both girls are excited to NOT have school but definitely miss the structure and schedule. Presley has had minimal contact with her friends and doesn't really seem to care. Piper can be a little social butterfly on Messenger with some of her friends.
I'm sad for Presley being the last year of elementary school. Missing out of the 5th grade celebration stuff, middle school tours and information. I know she doesn't know any different so I try not to bring it up but I'm still disappointed for her.

The girls fight so much. They are so mean and snotty to each other and to me and being in this apartment doesn't help. I don't feel comfortable with them being outside without me (They wouldn't really want to anyways and I'm working) so they get cooped up with me inside most of the day. We try to get outside over lunch and after work but that is only when the weather cooperates.
I'm pretty sure the cops will be called with the amount of door slamming, jumping, running, screaming and crying that go on. I will be buying the couple below us a card to apologize for the chaos they probably hear all the time.

Steve has been great in helping out when he can. On the days that he doesn't have a full day of work, he'll come and get them for a couple hours or picks them up early on his nights b/c he knows it is for the best for all of us that I get some time away to clear my head and have some quiet.

I think we are going to have our babysitter Lexis come and watch the girls every Wednesday so that it helps break up the week for all of us.

At this point I'm just hoping for a summer. Can we use the pool? Can the girls go to the park? Will Steve get to take the girls to Okoboji? Will we have my family reunion in Colorado? I have tickets to 3 concerts, will they all get canceled? I can't deal. I can't imagine. I just can't.

Send wine.